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assuredly. oh, sure. you say so. constantly. i'm not sure if i should believe you, but i love you.

...just wishing to unearth a reason for this pandemonium. look at what you've done... but i want to hear the outside story... 'why do you look so ill?' 'cause it just gets harder every day'... simply to assure you that the self-denial is voluntary...had haunted this place in times before. maybe it's purgatory... it appeared as if we could stay to wait for their values to disintegrate... just pretend, with me, that we didn't almost have to go through death... and so we sit by day, praying to find the love again... 'falling may occur'... we're running to our demise... we think, please compromise for the lost blood. is that possible?... once upon a time, we were cut from reality... 'just an irreverent equal'... you said we'd hear echoes of truth before we felt the chilling presence of what had been bound by deception until now. you said you'd be devoutly honest. yet with the element of surprise, you let lies out... ignite in remembrance... they can never know me... but the situation was utterly desolate, just as the stars against the lonely midnight sky above. we saw it all collapse with them... if i stay, it would only make matters worse, but i must say, you've brought on a curse... until you found what we had long ago. i thought we'd never burn out.

[audrey, if you are reading this, you are free to incorporate as many of these bits of lyrics, or any other bits of lyrics i've posted, into songs. just tell me if you do. and someday, if you don't, they'll just go back into the elegy, from whence they came.]

[revised:] their cruel words no longer sting. i will face no further injury. i had smiled before this love, now i smile as i bleed. enthralled by the light, your eyes sparkle with joy. yet i am left in the shadows, to admire this crystalline dream. i was consumed by the floor and i was hopeless. now i assure myself that i'll get through this.

denial, denial, denial. did we really do that? oh dear. 'no.'
reality? irrationality? heartbreak? do any of these things factor in when we choose our path?
questioning, forgetting, wondering. the only one which matters in the end is reality.
falling! straying! hurting! the situation will improve.
love. forgiveness. acceptance. just reach for the beckoning hand.

you're falling through the floor again, well it's nothing worth doing that over. believe me, with things such as what you saw written all over the walls, declare a state of total impossibility for the sky to suddenly come crashing down. i'd fly far away, on the whitest wings. broken hearts can and often will lead to resentment, but the death of an era just begins a new one. raise our voices, in a sign of hope, run through the fire, and quit waiting for an event of instant gratification and glory. if were such a close attachment, would it even be necessary to pose questions? it's simply a matter of injustice. let's just resolve this issue and make a decision; to be or not to be? 'tis it something worth crying over? to possess an amount of hatred equivalent to the fury of the rising sun or the crashing waves of the ocean against something is generally unnecessary. for what reason do the dearest ones not see just exactly what their 'everything' has triggered? oh, does it really matter? nothing. nothing more than a matter of endless reconciliation. what is responsible for this absence of truth?

[don't worry, i'm not trying to send some sort of cryptic message within the bolded words.]

...i'm falling along the way, the choices of yesterday don't really mean much anymore... now we won't forget that pretty scene. never. it excluded the placidity we'd always dreamed of. your animosity was simply over the top. and remains so... just say it in an illicit manner... never partake in those events again.

Were you always there, besides in my mind? I didn't think so. We wanted this to be real, to sleep while angels watched over us. They're calling me to go back anew. The elegies remain the same, as the static "love" radiates and melts minds. This pattern makes us want to walk away, but we can't just walk away as we once could. We've gently tampered with the fragile balance they feared would fall.

"Something's got to change."